I won't lie about the fact that I like having some boys interested but the reality is that that doesn't bring any kind of activity for me. Exactly because my shell doesn't combine with my pearl.
Pearl because if it wasn't for me exterior, I would still be in a good path (good beliefs, nice girl, behaved company, although I can't talk about some not so pure thoughts, I know you know what I meant). And I basically only noticed the effects I can have on the other genre after everything with my ex and only boyfriend.

Why the hell everything makes me remember my ex-boyfriend or ex-relantionship?!

Songs (like High Hopes from Kodaline), Films (for example Love, Rosie) and now series?! Jane, The Virgin... (although I won't leave a comment on the title, the situation she is with Rafael-hhoottt!!!!pratically in love with this guy, after some research is name is Justin Baldoni, fyi- it feels more than familiar to me. I would risk to say that it was exactly what happened with us (it become just me and him(+new girlfriend)). He started getting a lot on his head and focus to much on his future, which I totally understood and still understand, but it was just not enough for me because he already had gave me 100% of him and that felt less than 50%... He knew how I felt, and he just say:''Makes me sad knowing that I can't make you sad anymore'' and then the old excused (not old once this serie is kind of recent and is on the script in 2015 so he might have chosen wisely, as always): ''We have different goals, and we're already taking different paths and, this is not working. But I hope we can be friends after, everything we've gone through, I would really apreciate''

Fuck this shit! Fuck that!!! Really?! He didn't have time for me but after two or three weeks he is already dating someone?! He never wanted to post photos on social media, but his fucking instagram is filled with their full of love pic! Fuck that! Fuck you! You once told me I was the love of your life, but it doesn't take one fucking month to forget me?! And what stupid idea was yours of inviting me to your birthday?! Do you really wanted me there, smiling while you and your girlfriend make out?

No, thanks. Be happy, but leave me alone, because you really just feel like an unwanted haunt!

Damn..

My head is a big crap.

After watching some videos explaining 'Why girls like Jerks?' and 'How to tell when you're before a player':
Fucking shit!
I'm a player? Yes...No!! I'm not... But, after seeing some trigger points, I think I'm..
Weird, I always thought I was the one being played!
Fucking shit again!!
I mostly like dushbags?! Jerks? Really?!
How the fuck would I not be this messed up when I basicly like players, being played and to play?!